I don't want to go out of my comfort zone and date anymore - and I don't want to have to drop everything for a MAN (and not for a woman either - in case you were thinking about it).
I would definitely like to be friends with this guy that I guess I have dated three times (if you count meeting for lunch/I paid - and meeting for coffee/he paid - and going out to dinner/I drove and he paid - all dates)...interesting. And here I am keeping count of who has done what - why am I doing that? I haven't done that in the past. Very interesting - it's like, 'the score is now blank and blank.' How sad is that.
Why does it seem impossible to meet someone who has his own home-like me, has his own means of transportation-like me, has a good paying job-like me, or be responsible (for kids/pets/plants/etc.)-(yuppers, you've guessed it) like me, or even have other interests (like family/friends/hobbies)-like me?!?! I just don't get it.
I meet these men that are nice and all. My friends say that I always meet the nice guys - when am I going to meet a 'bad boy.' I don't want to do that - I deserve nice guys because I am a nice woman. :) So there!!!
But the red flags start poppin up - they live in an old/ugly/dirty - I mean really dirty - not just cluttered apartment (or they live in the basement in their parent's home)...yikes!
They drive a car that is in fairly bad shape - they don't take care of things...red flag. Oil or something leaking - extremely dirty inside with I don't know what - dirt/grime/mud/papers/what is that, 'gum on the floor?'
Granted, I am not a neat freak - my house is totally cluttered, but I try to keep the dirt and dog/cat hair to a minimum - darn animal hair!!! The dishes get done at least four times a week - and we try to vacuum at least once a week. But I have 4 people living in this house - we are lucky not to have to do the dishes everyday - and thank the lord for the dishwasher!!! :)
And my car is fairly new - I just got it in October and it has doggy hair in it now...there was even mud in there from our good ol' doggy park adventure. But I've cleaned up the mud and try to vacuum the hair up as good as I can. Darn animal hair!!!
I try to dump all trash out weekly - it's amazing how many straw and gum wrappers can accumulate underneath the seat in a week. WOW!
I like to have fun with my kids, friends, and family and I cannot and will not give all of that up to spend all of my time with a MAN...sorry. This guy is calling me every day - multiple times a day...ugh! It never fails, I gave up dating 5 years ago because of the same thing - it's like, get a life...get a hooker, anything - just leave me alone. I don't like that feeling of 'obligation' to have to call him back each time. So, now I don't. He's called in the past three days a total of 14 times. And he's emailed me about 5-6 times. I made it clear (or so I thought) that this was going to be a very busy week for me...with the seminar/my kids-school parties, etc./family birthday get-together/friends from out of town visiting/etc. And that I would be in touch probably later in the week...I guess either he didn't listen to me or he doesn't care. Very interesting.
I wish I could find someone to add to our lives and not just be a take-take-take kind of guy. Granted, I would want to be able to return the favor - add to his life as well.
Yes, I am awesome - that's what my new guy friend says about me a lot. Unfortunately, I am not able to return the favor - I don't find him awesome or anything even close. I find him to be needy and a squatter - and he needs to get a life. Possibly a life without me. Unless we can just be friends - but I don't think that is possible...he definitely (right now) wants more. yikes!!!
Ok, enough rambling about the MAN - I'm done giving him anymore space on this blog.
Next subject, Whatcha doin' for St. Patrick's Day - it's this Friday ya know...you'll hafta wear green or you'll get pinched. Do they allow that anymore? Hummm.
Thanks for listening/reading.
